To have that feeling of achievement, or obtaining the hope of doing what it is you have pushed or wanted to do, and that last minute to have it taken away from you.
That girl on your mind, that night you spend with her, the perfect moment that plays over in your head because only words are shared between you both now. Spending hours with her on your mind, to talk to her and hold back the words you want to say. to want her to want you.
To hopeshe thinks about you, because she is all you think of.
hope is not my friend